Another Fire

11:00PM  6-23-2018

We have a wildfire at 400 acres presently coming down the hill towards us. Lots of falling ash – looks like snow.

My neighbors son came over and hosed down our roof while I and Kath hosed down the property and house. It was 104 degrees here today with high winds.
I and the rest of the residents of Clearlake will not be sleeping tonight as we are all on social media and cal fire monitoring evacuation orders
We have evac bags packed and animals ready to go.
I have decided I am not going to go through this stress every fucking year. I am going to begin looking at selling this house and moving out of the area – possibly out of the state.
Keep us in your prayers.

The Gradual Erosion of Trust

idea theft

I have lived through a few experiences lately that, quite simply put, have negatively impacted my view of Second Life as a creative medium.

I work off my passion as an artist. I pride myself on the originality of my ideas and designs. I never stopped to think that there were creators in Second Life who, through their own lack of ideas and originality, prosper by preying upon people like me.

I was naive. I was lonely and looking for friends, busy trying to fit-in and be accepted. I ignored the warning signs.

I never saw it coming.

But I have learned so much though these experiences I know that when I am ready to come back swinging (if I am again – right now that’s a big “if”) I will do so from a much stronger position, a much smarter position, and be able to identify the warning signs of unethical behavior much faster.

Here’s my advice –

There is no recourse for unethical behavior in Second Life. Unfortunately, builders who are incapable of generating original concepts or content will think nothing of stealing yours. Do not let this discourage you from creating in SL. Create from your own passion. Be aware that if you are original you will be copied and your ideas stolen. There are things you can do to minimize the pain of having this happen. Take steps to distance yourself from shady people and organizations as soon as you realize something feels wrong about them. Always pay attention to your gut feeling – if a situation or person is making you feel uncomfortable, remove yourself from them as quickly and quietly as possible. Only share your work-in-progress with people that you know you can trust – or do not share it at all – Simply build your products and release them to the public. Although is it difficult not to feel angry and frustrated after someone has stolen an idea from you – rise above the anger. Focus your energy instead on your next idea and the one after that. Learn from your negative experiences because they are some of your greatest teachers – let them help you become smarter and wiser. Grow better, not bitter.

Until next time …


Growing a Business

I had no idea that by turning-off my visibility and having a secret workshop I would increase my productivity by 500% – It’s pretty amazing.

Tonight I am super excited – I have a shot at a store-front location on one of the oldest, best known bike/vehicle sims in Second Life. Owned by a highly regarded master vehicle builder and 3D vehicle part modeler.  I’ve been buying his parts ever since I started my business. So I put my bid in and we shall see. The rent on my new home, workshop and store (if I get it) would amount to a 1/3 of what I was paying before – not a bad upgrade.

I am so happy lately. Just genuinely happy and content. I work hard all day – some days I work into the night – and when I lay my head on my pillow at night my mind is clear and free from stress and worry. Whatever harm was done to me in the recent past seems to be nothing more than a formless, nameless vague memory now.  It left no lasting impression or scar. But not the lesson I learned I from it. That will forever stay sharp in my mind.

“There are two questions a man must ask himself: The first is ‘Where am I going?’ and the second is ‘Who will go with me?’

If you ever get these questions in the wrong order you are in trouble.”

― Sam Keen, Fire in the Belly: On Being a Man

Blog pic

Until next time …


The Indian Reimagined

Classic Indians Poster

Last year I began acquiring all the parts necessary to build the classic Indian Chief made by the Indian Motorcycle Company 

Life and other projects got in the way and I shelved the idea. At long last I am now free to pursue it. To the best of my knowledge only one other guy has successfully built this bike in Second Life – he did it many years ago and unfortunately used some pretty crude sculpties. Which caused the bike to be high prim/high land impact. So my first steps involved finding mesh parts and re-engineering the design. In US Dollars I have invested almost $60.00 in parts – which speaks to my love of this bike and my desire and tenacity to build a reimagined version of it.

When completed, I will release an entire line of these bikes. One and two seaters in the original colors plus some others of my own design.

The New Workshop

A little nondescript beach house with open architecture and lots of light and a great little back room for design, storage and experimentation. Affordable rent and a lovely location where I can work undisturbed for hours on end.  Here’s some pics –

I am very pleased with how this turned out. The joy I feel when I am designing and building is hard to express. And to finally be working on this particular project makes it all the more enjoyable and satisfying.

Until next time …

Beginning Again

And as imagination bodies forth
The forms of things unknown, the poet’s pen
Turns them to shapes and gives to airy nothing
A local habitation and a name.

-William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night’s Dream

This begins with me telling you I had let hate win. I let it drive me out of my “Happy Place”. The place where I had found a body and a life that matched how I feel inside. The place where I had found friends, love, safety and peace for 9 years.

This blog is about beginning again and not making the same mistakes that lead me to the dark, formless hell of gender dysphoria and the end of all hope of ever feeling normal again. Despair is too light a word for how I felt.

I became careless with my virtual life. I became careless with the one thing that I relied on for personal balance, sanity and inner stability. For I live the life of mind and imagination. And those are not the places to invite-in strangers or those who may wish you harm.

To others Second Life may appear to be a game, a 3D social platform where anonymity guarantees safety  for those who wish to revel in the repugnant vagaries of an existence free from consequences – moral, ethical or otherwise. But to me – it is where I live and I would never do something in Second Life that I would not do in my First Life.

I blogged for 6 years under my Second Life name and I shared everything about my life there. Here in this new blog you will never see my Second Life name. You will never see the names of my friends. You will never know the locations of my home or businesses. What you will see is lots of pictures of my av doing things and personal observations on life, on creativity,  building virtual objects and vehicles, on virtual sailing, skiing, diving, travel, photography, exploration, and just lots of fun stuff that makes me happy.

I no longer belong to any Second Life groups on Facebook or any other Social Media. Any sharing I do going forward will be here on this blog.

This is once again my safe space. This is my Undisclosed Life.

Until next time …